Wednesday, July 30, 2008


The last year has been a hard one for me and it not quite over, but I received my miracle. I am doing great and I have already lived longer than my prognosis. I will probably always live with cancer inside of my, but I have learned to accept it and trying to accept the limitations, but I have also found some joys. I will be having surgery in September and will have one more round of chemo. There is finally an end in sight. I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out the real me and who I want to be. I have done a lot of soul searching and have found a lot of inner strength. As this part of my journey ends, I am ready for another one.

After much consideration, I have accepted a job at the Ulman Cancer Fund for Young Adults as the Intake and Resource Coordinator. I will be fielding calls and emails from cancer patients, survivors and family members; providing them with information, resources and lending an ear. I am very excited about this position. It is a new journey in my life and one that I feel follows my heart and God’s plan for me. It is a risk leaving T. Rowe Price and its security, but sometimes you have to take a risk.

A friend gave me these quotes today:

Follow your heart down the 'journey of life'.
Your mission in life is not to be without problems - your mission is to get excited about something(s).
"Always do more than you are paid for, and one day you will be paid for more than you do.
"You don't work for your boss - you work for YOURSELF!
Your life will only work when you take full responsibility for your CHOICES.
And your CHOICE of VOCATION is top of the list.

"Work is love made visible."- Kahlil Gibran.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008


It is the third day of vacation. It is nice during the day when I can sit on the beach, relax and nap. However, twelve people can get on each others nerves very easily. My mom is driving me crazy, but I get that is the norm with family vacations. We went to the boardwalk and rode the rides yesterday. It was great riding the roller coaster with my 17 year old nephew. It was the first roller coast we ever went on 7 years ago. I am exhausted just hanging around my nephews. I wish I had more energy, but hey I am at the beach and on vacation. It could be much much worse.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Go’in down to the ocean, Hon

Tomorrow I leave for a week at the ocean with my family. My sister came in from Missouri with her family, so there will be 12 of us including the little kids. I am looking forward to it, but I have my hesitations. My parents bicker a lot, and while it can be funny it can also be very annoying. It won’t be the same as relaxing on the beach in Aruba, but I will be able to sit on the beach and read. I may even make a sand castle or too. I am going to try and get up every day and go for a walk or a run, this will be nice to get a little quiet time in.

Well, I best get to packing. I am not taking my laptop, so this will be the last entry until I get back.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Life is getting Normal

Not sure if I can believe it, but life is getting back to normal. Except for pain and still being tired, the days are filled with normal stuff like work, chores, laundry, dishes and all that includes. I am no longer getting meals delivered and as much as I miss the delicious meals, I am doing ok cooking my own meals. I am trying to pack lunch everyday and I am eating a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for lunch and quesadillas for dinner, but at least it is nutritional and I am eating.

I went for a walk/run the yesterday. I am walking for 9 minutes and running for 1 minute. After 30 minutes I thought I was going to melt and drop right there on the path, but I did the entire 30 minutes. I am getting there – 5K here I come.

The next step is to getting my bike together, find a bike pump and go for rides to get ready for the Booty ride.

I went back to the pain specialist/surgeon last week and had another nerve block. It is amazing how much it helps – almost instantly. It only takes 15 minutes to start and it can last a couple days. We decided when we do the surgery we will cut the affected nerves at the same time. He is planning to do the surgery laporscopically. It is outpatient and the recovery should only be two weeks. It looks like that will happen in late September.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Missing in action

Sorry it has been so long since I updated the blog. Not much going on. The pain level has increased and the new medication is making me exhausted and hungry all the time. I am trying so hard to lose weight so having cravings all the time is not helping. I am working on my walking – hope to start running in two weeks, at least for a little bit. I need to get my bike serviced so I can start preparing for the Booty ride.

Have not heard anything about the date for surgery yet; I am a little anxious about that. I want to get a date so I can plan for it. I also want to be recovered in time for the Booty ride.

When I talked to the doctor last week about the surgery, I forgot to ask about the recover and whether it is outpatient. I go to the doc today for another pain/nerve block and will ask then. Hopefully I can also get a date for the surgery. That is it for now – nothing very exciting.